Trust God…

Written by Toby Hedgepeth
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Scripture: Judges 6:12-14 – The angel of the Lord appeared to him (Gideon) and said to him, “The Lord is with you, you mighty warrior.” Gideon answered him, “But sir, if the Lord is with us, why then has all this happened to us? And where are all His wonderful deeds that our ancestors recounted to us, saying, ‘Did not the Lord bring us up from Egypt?’ But now the Lord has cast us off and given us into the hand of Midian.” Then the Lord turned to him and said, “Go in this might of yours and deliver Israel from the hand of Midian; I hereby commission you.”

Reflection: I really want you to go back and read this whole story in Judges; I love this story. The Lord raised up Gideon, as a “mighty man of valor” to use him to deliver His beloved Israel from those who were oppressing them. Gideon wasn’t expecting this visit! Just like many others called before him, he had concerns – because of the current situation they were in, he didn’t really think the Lord was with them.

When the angel of the Lord appeared to Gideon, he was a little confused. He said if the Lord is with us then why are we suffering? Why are we being oppressed by the Midianites? He said where is the truth of our ancestors’ words? They told us that God provides. They told us that God will take care of us. He said, “But sir, if the Lord is with us, why then has all this happened to us?”

Do you feel that way sometimes?

You’ve heard stories about how good God is. But here you are thinking if the Lord is with me then why am I always struggling? If the Lord is with me why can’t I find a good job? If the Lord is with me, why have I been dealt this hand? If the Lord is really with me, then why (please tell me) is this cross I bear so heavy? Where is this God who is good all the time?

But just like Gideon, there is a plan – and the word WILL come when you are least expecting it. Gideon was threshing wheat in a winepress, to hide from the Midianites, when the Angel of the Lord appeared. This lets me know that God doesn’t care about where we are, or what we’re doing; the Lord comes to us in His time, not our own.

Even though Gideon had concerns, and he didn’t see how this was going to work, he trusted the word of God. His physical situation didn’t change, his trust did. The Israelites were still being oppressed by the Midianites, but Gideon now believed he was the warrior God told him he was!

When all else seems lost, will you still trust God? When nothing seems to be going your way, will you still trust God? When God shows up in your situation, to let you know that you are more than a conqueror, will you trust Him?

Spoiler alert!!! If you trust Him, you will win!

Prayer: God of my life – Commissioner of my soul – I am in awe of Your love for me. I know my situation is a little messy right now, but I trust in You. I believe You will do exactly as You promised in Your word. I am more than a conqueror, because You said so! In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.



Written by Toby Hedgepeth
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Scripture: Hebrews 13:8 – Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, forever.

Reflection: A few weeks ago, I decided to begin posting to my blog weekly. With the second semester of Seminary approaching, and the commitments of ministry, family and work, I wanted to be sure I had time to keep my word to God, myself and others. When I thought about changing from a daily schedule to a weekly one, I remembered my guiding word for 2019…REST.

Although my plan for rest is not a resolution, I often feel pained when I hear that about 36 percent of those who make resolutions don’t make it past January. So, now that we have made it to the second month of 2019, think about what promises you made to yourself, and to God, for the new year.

Where are you now? Are you still going strong? Are you still pulling through? If so, I applaud you. If not, come along with me and use this week as a time to reevaluate your plan. We shouldn’t stop when things get off track, we must reposition ourselves for excellence. 

I realized this morning, as my pastor was preaching from the book of Ruth, how she had to reposition herself to find love again. She never questioned the move, she just did it because she knew it was necessary.

I’m sure many of us have had to reposition our lives after the loss of a loved one. After the loss of a job. After our plans changed. Our desires changed. We should find solace in knowing that even when our lives change – and we are forced to do something different – God never changes. God is the same yesterday, today and forever!

Repositioning can be frightening but it’s necessary.

Jesus accepted the fate of the Cross to reposition us to receive His Grace.

What, in your life, needs to be shifted? It’s not too late – as a matter of fact, you’re right on time.

Prayer: My God. My Friend. My Gracious Redeemer. Thank You at this moment for helping me get my promises and priorities back on track. Thank You for being patient with me when things change in my life and I need to reposition myself to receive more of You. Thank You, that even when I change, You are ALWAYS the same. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.

God’s Grace

Written by Toby Hedgepeth

Scripture: Romans 11:6 – But if it is by grace, it is no longer on the basis of works, otherwise grace would no longer be grace.

Reflection: A few days ago I received something wonderful, and unexpected. When I learned of this gift I was receiving, I immediately thought to myself “I don’t deserve it.” Truth is I couldn’t even get excited about it because all I could think was that I was not worthy of what I had been given.

Fast forward a little while later, I was talking with a friend and telling her how I didn’t deserve this gift I just received, and I was feeling guilty for it. As I was going on and on, she stopped me and said “Toby, it’s God’s Grace.”

I had convinced myself that I didn’t deserve it, because I had not worked hard enough. I had not been as dedicated as I should have been. But if I would have first thought about God, and the unmerited grace I receive EVERYDAY, instead of trying to make sense of it, I would have realized it wasn’t about me.

Truth is we don’t deserve God’s grace. There is nothing we can do to earn God’s grace. It isn’t given to the hardest worker, or the one with the most money. Grace isn’t something that comes to us because we pray the loudest or stay in church the longest.

It’s unmerited. It has nothing to do with us, and everything to do with God.

Now, I must consider, how does God want me to use this gift? How do I use this gift, that I didn’t earn, to bring glory to God?

How do you use the gifts God has given you, by grace?

Use them wisely.

Prayer: Creator – Unmerited Gift Giver. Thank You for reminding me of Your grace. Thank You for reminding me that there is nothing I can ever do to earn Your love, or the gifts You give freely. Help me to remember that it is never about me and always about You. Help me to use the love and gifts, provided to me for free, for Your sake. To bring life to Your words, and not my own. Precious God help me to use my gifts wisely. In the name of Jesus Christ, I pray, Amen.

What’s Familiar to You?

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Written by Toby Hedgepeth

Scripture: Romans 12:2 –Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your minds, so that you may discern what is the will of God—what is good and acceptable and perfect.

Reflection: I remember, years ago, reading the book Cover Girls, by TD Jakes. There is an excerpt in this book that gave me pause, and it reads:

“Be careful what you get used to. If you don’t watch out, you can become accustomed to negative things, things the Father never wanted you to have, like pain or abuse. Some people have become used to poverty. Some have become used to fighting. They feel at home in pain. They cleave to it because they understand it.”

So, my question to you today, is what have you become used to? What “things” have become familiar to you? And then, I wonder, how do we begin the process of renewing our minds to let go of those “things?” We know, because of Romans 12:2, that it’s possible. There is a way to let go of the negative things we have held onto for, in my case, generations.

You probably won’t have to think too hard about what has become familiar to you. What generational curses have followed you from the lives of your ancestors? What familiar things have you created in your own life? Is it brokenness, poverty, gossip, abuse, unforgiveness?

For me, I had to start telling myself a different story. When I felt the spirit of unforgiveness creeping into my mind, I had to immediately tell myself “I must forgive because I have been forgiven.” Or, “I must forgive in order to be forgiven.” Over and over I had to train my mind to think differently.

I’m no longer broken because Thessalonians 5:23 says that the God who makes everything holy and whole, make you holy and whole, put you together – spirit, soul, and body – and keep you fit for the coming of our Master, Jesus Christ. This is my new narrative. I might feel broken because of the things that have happened in my life, but I’m made whole because of God’s grace.

This week find a new story. Begin to form a new narrative. Look to the One who loves you most, to begin the renewal of your mind.

Prayer: My God, my Savior, thank You for giving me a new mind. Help me today to release those harmful things in my life, as I discern Your will from the false stories I have made true. My prayer today is that I can bind those things, in the name of Jesus. Bind them through prayer, fasting and believing that You have a plan for me that is much bigger than the plan I have for myself. When I carry the weight of my past, I can’t focus on becoming new – so help me clear the chatter in my mind telling me I must conform to my past. I’m a new person in You. Whole, confident and full of joy everlasting. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.

Running from God

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Scripture: Jonah 1:1-3 – The word of the Lord came to Jonah son of Amittai: “Go to the great city of Nineveh and peach against it, because its wickedness has come up before Me.”  But Jonah ran away from the Lord and headed for Tarshish. He went down to Joppa, where he found a ship bound for the port. After paying the fare, he went aboard and sailed for Tarshish to flee from the Lord.

Reflection: I have learned how easy it is to replace the name of Jonah with my own name; ‘But Toby ran away from the Lord and headed for Tarshish’ (I lived in Tarshish for a while). Tarshish for me was mostly about accountability – I didn’t want to be held accountable for what God had for me to do – so I ran.

While I understand the fear of following God, because we fear anything unknown, I also know that God is omnipresent. So even though I’ve done it, now I laugh at this idea of running away from God; it’s a bit of an oxymoron. God is present everywhere, and everything is immediately in His presence. So, we must ask ourselves, what are we trying to prove? We cannot run anywhere God isn’t. Fleeing from God is an exercise in futility (kind of like running on a treadmill – or going nowhere fast).   

Let’s think about Jonah for a moment.

Jonah ran from God’s calling, purchased a ticket, and boarded a ship to go somewhere he never expected God to be. If we use the story of Jonah as a guide, we will see that no matter how deliberate we are, if it’s God’s plan, we will still end up in the place, with the person, in the job, doing the thing, we tried so hard to get away from.  Jonah purposely went down to the port and purchased a ticket to run away from his calling, and he still ended up in Nineveh doing exactly what he was told to do.

And we can’t be so vain to think that running away from our calling, and buying a ticket to Tarshish, is only about us; that the consequences are only ours to bear. What about those who God will place in our path to help us and, more importantly to me, those we have been sent to care for. Those who are waiting on us to accept our calling, so they can experience the glory of God in their own lives.

Stop running – and listen for God’s word.

Prayer: Forgive me for running. Starting today Lord, I’m no longer fleeing from Your instruction. I’m no longer running from Your will or from Your reproach. Direct my paths and show me the way. I’m ready to listen. I’m prepared to be Your servant, in service to others. Thank You for Your patient ways – and for loving me through my waywardness. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.

In the Beginning…

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Scripture: Genesis 1:1 – “In the beginning God…”

Reflection: The first four words of the creation story should be the first four words to any story in our lives. “In the beginning God…” I can’t say I have always honored this truth; however, as I attempt to be more like Christ and less like the world, I sometimes need the reminder.

In the beginning (of marriage) God…

In the beginning (of being a parent) God…

In the beginning (of my day) God…

In the beginning (of prayer) God…

In the beginning (of rest) God…

In the beginning (of obedience) God…

There should never be a time in our lives when we don’t put God first. Proverbs 16:3 tells us to commit our works to the Lord, and our plans will be established. Put God first and our plans become God’s plans; and God’s plans become our plans.

I admit, I can sometimes get this backwards. I like to make my plans and then consult with God about them. I get lost in my plans and then I search out God for rescue. If we admit it, we can all be like the children of Israel – doing what is right in our own eyes.

I am challenging myself, and I challenge you as well, this week, to seek the Lord first. When life throws you a curve ball, seek God. When you are tired and weary, seek God. When you wake in the morning, seek God. Even when the world is revolving as it should, and everything is in its perfect place, seek God.

That’s easy enough.

Prayer: My God, my Savior – I invite You to be first in my life. I invite You to lead me in the way I need to go. This week Lord, I ask that You send gentle reminders when I’m moving forward without putting You in Your rightful place; Your rightful place as the Head of my life. I give everything over to You – wherever You lead, I will follow. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.

Find Rest

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Scripture: Matthew 11:28 – “Come to me, all you that are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. 

Reflection: This year, 2019, I decided my focus would be rest. I would structure my life and my ministry around rest. Letting go of the heavy burdens – and resting in Christ.

I can imagine this rest being like laying in your mother’s bosom – listening to her heartbeat. Trusting the rest. Knowing that as long as you are there, everything is right with the world.

Do me a favor – close your eyes for a moment and consider what that feels like…

Now, multiply that feeling to eternity.

This is exactly what Christ wants for us. He is asking for us to let go of those things that are keeping us from living purposefully. He says come to Me – all you who are weary and carrying heavy burdens – I will give you rest. I will take your mind off of the struggle, if you only come to Me. I will remove the fear, if you only come to Me. I will provide you peace of mind – oh, if you only come to Me.

He says, I know life is hard, I know you are afraid to face tomorrow, but come to Me my child and I will give you rest. I know things look scary right now, and you don’t know which way to go, but I promise if you are willing to come to Me, I will take it unto my bosom, so you can rest.

When we rest in Christ, we become better stewards of His calling on our lives. We don’t spend so much time worrying about things that take us away from our divine assignment. When we rest in Christ, we are better equipped to take on His mission of spreading the gospel to the world.

God is asking you today to release your burdens. Let them go, walk away, and rest. Promise me you will try – and I promise you won’t regret it.

Prayer: Burden Bearer, my Redeemer, give me rest. I’m not longer interested in the kind of rest that comes and goes – I’m looking for the deep, fulfilling, rest that only comes from You. I release all of my heaviness on to you. I release those things that are keeping me downtrodden, keeping me indifferent about the future, making me live in circles – I’m releasing those things to You. Lord, I trust You to lighten my load – and give me rest. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.

The Cross

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Scripture: 1 Peter 2:24 – “He himself bore our sins” in his body on the Cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; “by his wounds you have been healed.”

Reflection: What does the Cross mean to you? I mean do some deep soul searching, not the superficial look we do when someone asks us why we go to church, or why we believe. Do some true introspection into your heart (Proverbs 4:23); focus on your thoughts, your desires and your plans. 

Now, think of the Cross.

Think of the moment He was beaten. Think of the seconds before He was mocked and accused by the chief priests and elders. Think of His silence. Think of the crown of thorns being placed on His head. Think of the nails being driven into His hands. Think of Him taking His last breath.

Now, imagine the moment He thought of you.

When we understand why Jesus didn’t fight the fate of the Cross, we understand that the Cross was essential to our redemption today. Instead of each of us having to atone for our own individual sins, Jesus accepted the fate of the Cross for all of our sins. Even then, He had us on His mind – before we were ever formed (Jeremiah 1:5). He understood the Cross was the only way to save us from ourselves.

This week I implore you to consider what the Cross represents to you. If the Cross represents unselfish love, show someone what unselfish love looks like. If the Cross represents faith, grow your faith life this week by believing God to answer your deepest prayer. If the Cross represents life, give an uplifting breath of life to everyone you encounter.

Prayer: Father God, thank You for the Cross. Thank You for Your Son, who was without sin, who died for my sins. Help me to focus my thoughts on what the Cross means to me, and for me. Christ lived His life knowing He would die for my sins, and for this I want to live my life beholden to the Cross, in everything I say and everything I do. Allow me to grow forward from this day, as a new person, with renewed perspective and renewed faith, knowing that because Jesus conquered death, I too am a conqueror. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.

Thank You God

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Scripture: Psalm 9:1 – I will give thanks to You, LORD, with all my heart; I will tell of all Your wonderful deeds.

Reflection: There is something I ask my boys, very often. When we are snuggling, and just enjoying our time together, I always ask them “Do you know how I know God loves me?” Of course they indulge me by saying “how mommy”; even though I’ve asked them this same question many times and, for them, my answer never changes. I say, “I know God loves me because He gave me you.”

This started me thinking, and asking myself, Toby, how thankful are you really for the things God has given you – the things God has done for you – and how often do you thank and give God praise for the healing, the people, the moments, the purpose, the opened doors, and the closed doors alike – and everything in between?

Well, a few weeks ago, that’s what I wanted to do. I got up before the sun did – because I wanted to be intentional about drawing close to God and letting Him know how thankful I was. I left my husband asleep, and the kids were gone, so I felt I could find a moment to have a conversation, and write, without any interruptions.

This was not long after celebrating Thanksgiving and here I am wanting to be intentional about thanking Him for all He has done for me. I know that’s such a cliché, but Thanksgiving has this way of reminding us of the need to be thankful, however short lived it can be. Thankful for the patience He has shown me; the promises He has fulfilled in my life; the love He gives freely; for His grace and mercy; for the holiday season that means everything, and something different for those of us who believe; and for ordinary days that don’t mean anything in particular. I just wanted to say “thank You.”

I remember hearing something recently, although I can’t remember where, and the statement was “If you woke up today and only had the things you thanked God for yesterday, would you be alright?”

This is not an assumed question.

Would you be alright?

Would you be alright, if that job you despise was not yours tomorrow? Would you be alright if that family member you argued with during the holidays was gone tomorrow? Would you be alright tomorrow if your health started to fail? If your friends were gone? If your mind was fading?

I know this sounds a little drastic, but drastic times call for drastic measures. What are you thankful for? Let God know, with all of your heart, how grateful you are for the things you have received by grace! Take the time and count your blessings, one by one. Tell Him of His wonderful deeds. When you do, you will have a new appreciation for the things you have been blessed with.

Prayer: Father God, Lover of my Soul, Blessing Bearer – thank You! Thank You for everything, great and small, that You have blessed me with. Thank You for knowing what I need even when I don’t know. God, please forgive me for those times I forgot, or just neglected, to say Thank You. Help me to always be aware of when I’m ungrateful for Your gifts to me, and the people in my life. Also, please help me to remember that when I don’t receive those things I have prayed for, this is also Your way of blessing me – by protecting me from myself. Thank You for loving me and blessing me with Your Son, Jesus, most of all. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.

Are You the One

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I am happy to celebrate one week as a blogger!! I know this is a little different than the first week of devotionals, but God placed this on my heart – and I want to share it with you!

Are you the one? Are you the one who will remain faithful and steadfast in adversity? Are you the one who will trust God to bless you where you are? Are you the one who will try one more time? Are you the one who will take the risk to trust God even when it seems hopeless? The only prerequisite you need, to be the one, is faith! Do you have the necessary faith to follow God? To trust God? If your answer is yes, you are in good company. I know a few people who trusted God in spite of what it looked like on the outside. Let me (re)introduce them to you:

Eve – We all know Eve as the one who was fooled by the enemy, and in many of the sermons I have heard over the years, Eve took a bad rap. But I would like to argue that she knew she had a purpose more important than her circumstances. She had to realize there was something else that needed to be done. I say this because it would have been easy for Eve to give up. It would have been easy for Eve to throw in the towel, after her son was murdered by his brother, or after the enemy came in and tempted her. The Garden of Eden was her home for goodness sake and she was evicted from it. She had every good thing at her finger tips, and in the blink of an eye it was gone. I’m not sure about you but I don’t know if I would have been able to hold it together. I can imagine Eve saying the old wise adage “Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me!” The enemy never got a second chance to fool her. But even after all of this, she did not waiver. She did not stop moving forward. Through the lineage of her third born son, Seth, we are introduced to Noah; who God chose to repopulate the earth after the flood. We have been told over the years that she was the one who was tempted by the enemy. I implore you to remember her, from now on, as the One who didn’t let the wiles of the enemy keep her down. The one who kept moving forward, in spite of her circumstances. Let us be as resilient as Eve – and be the one who didn’t give up.

Sarah – Was the one who didn’t believe God could bless her where she was. Almost one hundred years old, and barren, and here God is telling Abraham He was going to bless him with more offspring than he could count. Sarah couldn’t see that happening. She laughed at the thought of it! Sometimes the thing that God wants us to trust Him for is too much for our human minds to comprehend. How am I going to have a baby at 99 years old? How am I going to get out of this cycle of abuse in my home? How am I going to support my family on this salary? How am I going to fight this battle with addiction, cancer, depression, how is my marriage going to survive all that is coming at us right now? And it doesn’t have to be something big we are trusting God for…it can be as small as believing He can help us through a tough week – believing He can bring understanding to an ongoing situation. You must believe that God’s sovereignty is real. He can, and He will, bless you right where you are. He doesn’t care that no one else has ever been blessed in the way you are seeking after Him. He doesn’t care that everyone says it can’t be done! He doesn’t care that you have yielded to this same thing repeatedly – God is able! Stop where you are and invite Him into your situation – and see how He can move on your behalf. Be the one who believes God can meet you where you are!

Simon (The fisherman) – Was the one who gave it one more try! After finding himself fishing all night, to no avail, he finally gives up. Simon was at it all night and didn’t catch one thing! I can imagine how tired and defeated he felt rowing to the shore the next morning. Questioning himself, wondering what he did wrong. Then, here comes Jesus telling him to try again. Do you have the wherewithal to try again? I know this sounds crazy, because you have tried with all your might – but do me a favor and try again! Round-up your net and cast it again. When we find ourselves fresh out of willpower, we should say what Simon said when Jesus told him to try again, Simon responded “Yet if You say so.” Don’t say “but Jesus I know more about this than you and it’s not going to work.” When you find yourself at the point of giving up – and Jesus speaks to your situation, asking you to try again, all you need to say is “Yet if You say so!” Simon didn’t know he was on the edge of his breakthrough. He tried once more and took in more fish than his net could carry. Are you ready for this kind of miracle in your life? Well, if you are, you need to be the one who will look to Jesus and say, “Yet if you say so!”

The Woman with the Issue of Blood – Is the one who had faith greater than I could ever imagine! Here she is suffering – for twelve years; possibly living a life of seclusion because of the uncleanliness of her illness. She takes a chance and mixes among the droves of people following after Jesus. I wonder if she felt this was her last chance to be made whole? What if she touched the hem of His garment – and nothing happened? Obviously, it was a chance she was willing to take. This unnamed woman has given me more courage to take risks that I ever thought. What risks are you willing to take? Are you willing to be the one who steps outside of your comfort zone and take a chance at building your ministry? Are you the one who is willing to start that business you are so passionate about? Are you the one who is willing to go back to school, almost thirty-years later, to prove to yourself that you can do it? It’s risky, but It’s worth it. Reach for the hem and He will provide a way. What is also amazing about this story is that even with the multitude of people around Him, Jesus knew when someone touched Him with intention. No, it wasn’t just a brush up against the arm, or someone stepping on the heels of his feet – He KNEW His power had been released. Let’s all take a lesson from our risk taker – be intentional, God will notice. Reach for Him, even if it’s with bated breath, reach!

Are you the one, that despite it ALL, you are still able to see the forest for the trees? You are still able to row back out and try one more time – even though you failed repeatedly? Are you the one who will take the risk and keep moving towards God? If this describes you, press on! Be the one that God is looking for in these days – even when you’re the only one.

My Father – thank You. Thank You for being the most important one in my life! Thank You for allowing me to have access to You and Your promises. Thank You for loving me enough to see me through situations that seem hopeless, only to come out with a testimony of hope and faith – loved, blessed and whole. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.